It seems as the day get closer (only 9 days until we leave!!!) that I am finding myself crying at everything. I can barely make it through a conversation with someone if they ask about our trip, or Priscilla, or my mom and grandpa coming. I cried all the way through church yesterday, especially during the music. :)

Yesterday we had a guest speaker who came and talked about the persecuted church, people all over the world suffering for their belief in Jesus that don't reach social media on a normal basis. He said that the most important, but sometimes most difficult thing, is to pray for these people. Sounds easy, until you start specifically praying for them. He also said that he has been asked why must we specifically pray for them when God knows exactly what they need already. His answer touched my heart in a pretty powerful way. He said God does know exactly what we need and want before we speak any words about it. However, if he just granted us those things without us asking, we would usually attribute it to "it just working out" or "things seem to have a way of working if they are meant to be" etc. When we ask God to grant us a specific request and He grants it, we have no one else to thank but Him. God gets the glory.

Oh how I have seen this over and over again with our journey to Priscilla. I have come to realize I most frequently pray in general broad terms. I felt too selfish or needy to have a specific prayer life, asking for help, guidance, etc. for a specific thing. However, with our adoption process I have learned to pray specifically and have been absolutely amazed at God's answers. He DOES love us more than we can imagine.

I feel so fortunate that God has blessed me and asked us to be part of Priscilla's journey. She is deeply loved by God and I can't wait to see what He has in store for her.

And I am crying again. :)